Friday, September 26, 2008

$600 later

I need the "World's Dumbest Moment" award.

Yesterday I lost my car keys. Of course we only have the ONE key for the car and I just HAD to lose it didn't I? Result? Car locked in driveway with windows down and keys nowhere to be found!!! NRMA came out but there wasn't much that could be done seeing as the car is computerised and nothing will work aside from reprogramming and new keys. So we rolled the car back to get Rob's car out (the ONE time he parked infront of me too!) and planned to call into Holden today.

Rob gets to Holden at 7am and that's when we realise that you can't just have a key made. They need the car to program the keys and reprogram the car. DUH!! So the car was towed to the dealer and they've made up a new pair of keys.

Cost? $600!! Lesson learnt? Priceless!!!

I'm chaining the new key to my arm and never letting it out of my sight!!!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Goodbye Chipmunk and Turtle

Dear Chipmunk and Turtle,

Two years you spent with us as a part of our family and today it was time to say goodbye and wish you well on the next chapter of your lives.

We want you to know that we will miss you dearly and we do love and care for you very much. We do wish things could've been different but unfortunately they aren't and we think we've made the best decision we can that will help the two of you become beautiful children and fantastic adults as you grow older.

Remember to never give up on yourselves.

We love you.

Monday, September 22, 2008

85/100 - happy with that!

Today I received my grade for my final assessment for COM14. I was graded 85/100! I am very happy with that. The assignment task was to submit a 2000word short story OR 2000word news/feature article OR a 2000word workbook reflecting over the course work. I opted for the short story and made it part fact, part fiction and very personal. So to achieve a grade like that is pretty good seeing as so much of myself was in it.

So fingers crossed I pass the unit overall as I unfortunately missed an assignment. I have enough marks to achieve a pass, it's just a matter of whether technically I pass or not.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Farewell BBQ

We held our family farewell bbq today for Chipmunk and Turtle. It went fairly well with little stresses which was good. The kids all had fun playing on the swings together and it wasn't a sad event in the slightest. Everyone wore a smile and were not at all negative which is what we wanted on the day.

I only had a bit of a run in with Miss-High-N-Mighty. She didn't seem to see anything wrong with squeezing a 5yr old into a baby/toddler swing and when I yelled out to get off it she yelled back "Oh I didn't know" and apparently mouthed off when my back was turned as I walked inside to do something. A bit of commonsense goes along way but obviously not with her!! I know she's still hurt about what's going on but seriously, she's 25yrs old not freaking 12!


Things progress kind of quickly from here this week. Tomorrow afternoon Chipmunk and Turtle go for dinner at their new 'home' and then Thursday is the move. I haven't even yet begun to pack their clothes and toys but that will start tonight so they can leave a few things there tomorrow (and also make it a little easier on the person taking them Thursday incase they don't fit it all in the car).

We've planned a family day out for Sunday next week as a step towards our new family life. Aside from our July holiday, we've not had 'our family' time really since Ethan was born so it'll be a nice change and something I think we'll all enjoy.

The part of me that felt guilty for things changing no longer bears that burden. I've come to realise that as everyone pointed out to me today, we have given Chipmunk and Turtle a strong 2yr foundation to work with that hopefully will help shape the rest of their lives. They are not leaving a 'not loved' home and being shafted to another. They are leaving a 'loved' home where we've done all we can with and for them and they're moving on to a home where another family want them very much indeed.

My hope for the both of them is that they receive the help that they need so that they can grow into the beautiful children we know they can be. I wish them well and I will miss them I'm sure and I look forward to seeing them in holidays and watching them grow.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Endings and Beginnings

Much has changed since the last time I blogged.

We had our QLD getaway in the July school holidays and it was absolutely fantastic. Of course, after each trip "home", I start to think about moving to the Sunshine Coast and mentally preparing and planning for it. How much of it eventuates into real life is anyone's guess but I would love to be able to pack up my family and relocate there.

Both Tayla and Rhiannah had an awesome time and Ethan had his first trip to the beach. He wasn't too keen on sand between the toes though!! We did a lot of things together and spent a bit of time with my best friend, who I have to say, is the number 1 thing that I miss about living in QLD.

Anyway moving on because there's so much to update here!

Last post I was talking about having just sat an exam for SSK12. Well I'm pleased to report that I received a 'distinction' for that subject. In study period 2 I attempted to study 2 subjects again and failed miserably. I let AUS11 slide as I couldn't keep up and focused more on COM14. However, I did miss an assessment for that subject and I'm currently waiting on the marks for the final assessment which I hope give me enough to scrape through on a pass. I've learnt my less and am only doing one subject at the moment and that is ENG110. I'm not behind on it although I do have a fair bit I should be getting through this weekend. I have my first assessment next week which is a 1-hour online exam that once you start, you cannot stop or pause it to resume later so I'll definitely have to set aside some time to get through that.

Chipmunk and Turtle are leaving us next week. They'll embark on a new adventure in their lives and one that I hope proves to be the best thing for them. Since our break away we have had the same problems happening and the same level of support from people - almost none! It got to a point where near the end of their assessments we spoke to the relevant people and asked if they thought being in an environment where they were the only young children would benefit them. As it turns out, all parties agreed and that is exactly what is happening. I'm feeling half guilty for playing a part in their moving on, but the other half of me is relieved. I will have my family resume to 'normal', Chipmunk and Turtle will hopefully be able to access the help that they need (that has not yet been provided to them while they've been with us), and they'll no doubt thrive on the attention they'll receive that we are unable to give them. This isn't happening on bad terms. It really is what is best for everyone and believe me when I say it wasn't a decision that was made lightly.

In other news, Cruz has joined the family. He's a gorgeous mahogany brindle Staffordshire Bull Terrier and he is almost 4months old. We've had him for almost 2months now and he's settled into the household pretty well. He's claimed a few toys here and there, developed a shoe fetish and likes to chase the cat. Three weeks ago he started basic obedience training and is doing really well, although some days I'm sure he likes to pretend he knows nothing! We've successfully crate trained him overnight so there's no more little surprises to step in when you first wake up of a morning.

On the work front I got a promotion! Before I had Ethan I was thinking of where I wanted to go with work and entertained the thought of being an Operations Manager. Of course with 5 children that was a bit out of reach so I let the goal go. However, in light of circumstances changing, I took the plunge and applied and I was successful. My new position starts on October 1st. I am excited about the new challenges and I hope that I'm able to learn as much as I possibly can and not let myself down.

So what does this mean for study? In all honesty, I have no idea right now. I will say that I am going to try to still study however this subject I'm enrolled in now will be the last Arts subject and after this I will be changing paths to a Business Degree. Big change I know but seeing as I'll be in the Admin/HR side of things, it makes sense to change my study path. I won't take on a heavy study load, only one subject at a time and see how I go. Will I cope? Who knows. But if I don't give it a go, I will never know.

This brings me to the family update.

Tayla's netball team made it into the grand final! Unfortunately we lost 19 - 8 but our girls fought all the way to the end! They were really pleased with themselves that in their first year at competition level, they made it all the way through to the end. We were all very proud of them! Both girls are doing athletics for the summer and are enjoying it.

Ethan is now 13months old and walking all over the place! Last ECHN check up he was 13kg, 80.5cm tall and his (boof) head was 50.2cm.

And that I feel is enough of an update for now.


Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Study Period 2 & Life

Study period 2 has now begun.

I had my exam last night for SSK12. I think I have passed it, I felt fairly confident walking out of that exam. Also came to the conclusion that I don't like writing an essay under pressure! Time management wise I did ok. I think I could have used another 10mins easily for the essay but I had to try and stick to a breakdown of time between each section of the exam. Results for the unit overall should be available in 4-6 weeks. Possibly sooner if my tutor marks exams as quick as he marked and returned our assessment pieces!!

So now I'm venturing into 2 new subjects and let me just say that I am feeling more confident this study period than the first, and I think I'll be alright with both subjects. The units this period are Creative and Professional Writing as well as Images of Australia 1A (two part subject that spans across two level 1 units).

I also decided to apply for UNE's double degree of B.Arts/B.Teaching for 2009. I have read and re-read the course structure and I feel that it would be best if I was able to take on that degree and know that I am choosing and studying the right units. That's the only downside to OUA I suppose, ensuring you are studying the right things to get you where you want to be. Of course if I am unsuccessful with UNE for semester 1 then I can continue with OUA without a problem. So either way I will end up where I want to be and with the degree that I want.

That's the study side of things updated, now for life.

Where to start?? I suppose with the positives first would be good. Ethan is now crawling and pulling himself up to stand. He is 9 1/2 months old and is a whopping 11.2kg!! Who would think that at 2mths of age he was hovering on that 10th percentile for weight almost dropping below it to well and truly above it now! He is doing really well. He still only says 'mum' and 'bub' but he's making other sounds. He's just started with the "l" sound and he pokes his tongue out and whips his tongue from side to side making "l" sounds, almost sounds like "lol lol lol lol" (no not laughing out loud! ha ha!). He also has a hilarious Beavis laugh! Anyone who is familiar with Beavis and Butthead will understand this. I am yet to record it on my phone because everytime I try, Ethan would rather eat the phone!!

Both Rhiannah and Tayla are doing well also. They're both playing netball this season and Tayla's team has won the last 4 games in a row!! Not sure where they are sitting in the competition but they have won 4 of 6 games so far. Rhiannah's team has won 2 of their games but they are not in the competition as of yet. The u7's - u9's are not considered competitive as they're really just teaching them the concepts of the game, rules and positions etc. It's so cute seeing all these little tiny girls in their netball uniforms trying to shoot goals though!! (Posts aren't lowered for them in our comp.)

Chipmunk and Turtle are still with us, though some days I really wonder why!! Yes things are still stressful and chaotic. Although I do have to admit we seem to get a flow of good days without much indicident at all, and then rolls on the second wave! Some days it seems like they both store up all the naughtiness to come out in one huge wave over a day or two. Frustrating isn't close enough to describe how it feels. Today we're off to have a full paediatric assessment done on them both, something that should've been done when they FIRST were put in care, not 2yrs later!! So that will hopefully cover some of the behavioural issues we have to deal with.

Family support is still very minimal. I'm not even going to start venting about that, I'll be here all day! Let's just sum it up by saying that improvements in support have been made with one family member with more help being given in the past 2 months than in the past 2yrs however with one other family member, well they may as well not exist considering the effort they put in - which is ZERO!!

Saving the best news to last, our QLD holiday is only a month away!! The unit is booked, paid for, and awaiting our arrival!!! I CANNOT WAIT!!!!!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Long Overdue

So it would seem the blog is neglected already, didn't take long did it? Although I must admit I really haven't made the time to come and write much.

Uni is going well, for one subject at least. SSK12 is fantastic. I have now finished all my assessments for this unit and only have the exam to go on June 3rd. I am really confident with this subject and have no doubt I'll have a good grade overall. Apparently the final exam result won't be made available to us but rather the overall grade will be around 4-6weeks after the exam. So that would mean early-mid July I'll know!

Wish I could say the same for SGY110. This I have put down to a bad choice for a first subject and I'm choosing to not complete the unit. It is far better for me to do that than try and play catch up now! The other reason is that even if I withdrew from the unit, I'd still receive a 'fail' grade so as I said, bad choice for a first unit.

Lots of changes going on at the moment. I'll have to come back and update properly at a later stage.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Where does the time go?

Week 9 of the study period and I have an essay due this Friday but thankfully have had an extension granted until Wednesday of week 10, so that gives me an extra 5 days. Trust me I wouldn't have asked for it if it weren't absolutely necessary!! And I most certainly will not be making a habit out of requesting them.

I have 3 assessments due within days of each other but so far I'm going ok with them. My second log submission is almost completed. I have a rough plan of attack for one essay and the other (major!) essay I am tackling this weekend and researching for it over the next 2-3days.

After these assessments I have a smaller thematic to do, a take home exam and then a final exam (not all for the one subject) and that's the end of my first study period.

In news of family life, I am now the manager of Tayla's netball team. I'm helping Turtle's class on a Wednesday morning with their sight words. I went back to the gym yesterday (and I am so sore today!) after a month of not going. I am trying to become more organised. I am almost caught up on washing (wonders will never cease!) The countdown is on for our July QLD holiday. Stress levels change daily.

And that pretty much covers it all for now.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Today has just of *those* days.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Half way point

I've reached the half way point of my first study period. There are 13weeks to a study period with OUA and we're nearing the end of week 7 now.

I received my essay back for SGY110 a bit over a week ago and I was graded a C (Credit) with a numerical mark of 72. It's at the high end of a C but not quite enough to be pushed up to being a D but I am still very happy with that mark, especially as I never have enough time for that subject!

I will be better prepared for SP2 that's for sure! I am hoping to have better organisation and time management. I'm not entirely sure how realistic that is but I can try! I've also chosen my subjects for the next period. I'll be studying COM14 - Creative & Professional Writing and AUS11 - Images of Australia (1A). I'm combining an english/literature subject with a history subject which I hear, is a good combination as some history units require a lot of time. Both of these units are through Griffith Uni.

One good thing about studying with OUA is I get to study different units with different universities, although a vast majority will be just with Macquarie which is where I'll be obtaining the degree.

Life in general is coasting along ok. School holidays are proving testing to study time! That mythical concept of time management is beyond me with the kids home! Every 5 minutes I'm hearing "Mum! S/he hit me! Mum! S/he took my book! Mum! Mum! Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum!" I'm considering a name change!

Posting is being cut short by the demands of being a mother........

Monday, April 7, 2008

Achievements all round

Tayla played in a 'round robin' netball competition yesterday. It wasn't part of the competition for this season but more of something her coach wanted the team to participate in so they had 'extra practice' so to speak. The round robin was part of a celebration of 50 years for the club hosting the day. All the players received a medal for their participation.

Saturday just gone Ethan sat by himself!! I sat him down on the floor at a friends house and gave him a toy phone to play with and he happily sat up for a good 10minutes before starting to get the wobbles. He can't push himself up into a sitting position yet so we're not at that sitting ability. But this is a milestone nonetheless. He sat again yesterday when we were visiting my parents with a bowl full of his toys in front of him. He thought he was so clever too. You should've seen the cheeky smile on his face while he was sitting and playing.

I had 2 assessments due on Friday of last week. The learning log I submitted 2 days early as it was finished. My essay I submitted 1 day late without penalty. Both have been graded already! Our tutor is really on the ball with this subject. I still haven't received my grade for my first essay of my other subject and that was submitted at the end of week 3! (we have been told though that they'll be mailed out mid-April). Anyway back to the assessments from last week. For my learning log I recieved a Distinction (D), and for my essay I received a Distinction + (D+). I am more than happy!! Particularly with the essay seeing as I did struggle a bit with it and I will admit that I knocked it up in the space of a few hours. Besides a couple of small things, I did surprisingly well with it.

Note to self - don't leave things so late! Second note to self - don't assume because you think your work isn't 'good enough' that someone else will think that! Third note to self - confidence goes a long way!

Friday, April 4, 2008


Surgery on Monday (31st) went well.

I was in theatre for just on an hour and the Dr didn't encounter any problems. The grommet was removed and when I woke up in recovery a nurse handed it to me inside a container! The worst thing about waking up in recovery was I was half awake when they took the tube out of my mouth *eww* Thankfully it's not a "clear" memory but rather a "fuzzy" one. Still *eww* though!!

I was very tired and off balance after surgery. I was sick twice on the way home (again *eww*). I couldn't hear properly out of my right ear because it was packed with a 'plug' (gauze coated in ointment and much like a wick).

Tuesday I felt like I had a hangover the entire day. I was still a little off balance, fuzzy and headachey. I went to see my specialist to have the plug removed (that didn't hurt being taken out) and he was happy with how everything went and how my ear looked.

Today I again went and saw him and again he's happy! My ear canal isn't "stenosing" and the ear drum (while it still has a hole in it from where the grommet was) looks good.

I go back a week from Monday for my next post-op check up.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Two days to go....

Surgery has been confirmed for Monday. I am to be at the hospital at 1:30pm and I am #3 on the list. I can have a light breakfast before 7am, and a small amount of water before 9am but nothing after. (There goes my idea of sneaking in a pump and rpm class in the morning!!)

Am I worried about the surgery? The actual surgery no. I have complete faith and trust in my doctor that we're doing the right thing and I wouldn't have signed the forms if I had the slightest doubt in his ability or his recommendation. What I will admit to be worried about is losing my hearing, or damaging it further. But let's face it, that's a risk with any kind of ear surgery. I will just think positive and what happens will happen. My doctor isn't predicting anything because he said he really doesn't know til he gets in there (my ear) and has a look around. Again making it sound like there is "all this room" inside my ear!!

Having afternoon surgery fits in better with the kids as well. We were worried how we'd juggle getting everyone to school and taken care of at the same time as getting myself to the hospital. But it would appear that the afternoon will be the issue now, more specifically picking me up to come home. That should be easy enough to work around though with some help from my Mum. I think the plan is whenever it's time for me to come home, the kids will go down to my Mum's and then come home.

I worked a bit on my learning log today. I had to change 2 words in my glossary entries as I had picked words from my other subject (SGY110) and not the subject of the assessment (SSK12). That was easy enough to fix because one reading had 2 unfamiliar words so I used both of those.

I now have 2 reading reviews to complete, one in a mind map form, the other written - and the learning log is finished. I haven't yet started the 1200word essay but I'm not envisioning any problems with that.

I have unfortunately totally neglected SGY110 this week! I shall give it some much needed attention tomorrow.

Obviously still trying to work out that study balance!!

I put in a bit of extra effort this week at the gym with pump, 2 circuit classes, boxing and for the first time - yoga. I am sore to put it politely! But it's a good sore! It's the kind of sore that will make up for me not going at all next week (on advice from one of the trainers) after surgery. I wouldn't exactly say I'm losing weight at the moment, more like I'm yo-yo'ing because of the inconsistent gym schedule I've had the past few weeks. It seems like I can fit in a good week there but the next week something happens, or someone gets sick, and I can't get there at all.

Hopefully after next week off, everything settles down and I can get back to what my original (planned) schedule between home, study, gym was supposed to be!

We took some gorgeous photos of Ethan today. We had him out the front while the kids were playing and put him on a blanket with a few toys. Daddy was a bit 'snap happy' with the camera but we have some absolutely gorgeous photos. (of course that's just my bias opinion shining through there). I took a cute posed picture of Ethan sitting up. It was more of "Daddy quick sit Ethan up, let go, *SNAP*, topple over" but it was worth it! Ethan's almost but not quite sitting on his own. He's also a caterpillar! Head down, bum up, pushes forward, bum down, head up, head down, bum up, pushes forward, bum down, head up - and repeat! Very cute to watch! We saw him rocking on all 4s today - please let him NOT crawl for just a little bit longer!! I like being able to put him down and he stays where I leave him! (or close enough, seeing as he does tend to roll all over the place of late).

Wow. What a novel this turned out to be!

Signing off for tonight!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Plodding along

I received my result for my assessment from week 2. I was graded a 4/5 which translates into a HD (high distinction). I am quite happy about that! The assessment piece itself, like the first one, was only weighted as 5% of my final grade. Even though it is such a small weight, I'm still very happy with myself. Neither assessment piece was difficult as one was a library exercise and the other was a set of worksheets based on why are you studying, what are your goals and other similar questions. Still, to be graded as such for both pieces, I'm happy with that!

I'm currently working on my 3rd assessment for the same subject and I'm trying to get that finished early so I can move onto the 4th as both of them are due the same day. (Friday next week!)

In other news not related to study at all...

It is Rob's birthday today. We bought him a Parramatta Eels shirt because that's his football team. The girls baked him a (rather flat) mudcake after school and gave him a card.

Tayla received an award today for outstanding work in maths.

Turtle got through the day without whinging/crying/throwing a tantrum while at school.

And school photos were taken today. Rhiannah was in fits of giggles telling me she had to say "horsies" for her portrait photo, "puppies" for her photo with Tayla and the boys all had to say "stinky feet".

I can't wait to get their pictures! Usually takes 2months to come back so I will estimate we'll have them end May. I'd be (pleasantly) surprised if we received them back sooner.

Ethan has been an absolutely adorable baby the past few days. He's such a character already! He likes to pretend he's shy and then flashes his big blue eyes and grins like crazy! He also loves attention. He literally watches people until the notice him and start talking to him. Once they do, he flashes those eyes again, huge smiles and of course gets more attention lavished on him. Something tells me I'll be having quite a lot of teenage girls calling my house for him in future years!!

Anyway, I'm at the end of my tether this evening. All forms of tidying up can just wait til tomorrow morning.

I need sleep! (dozed off on the lounge this afternoon when I was meant to be reading!)

Monday, March 24, 2008

Late night ramblings

The 'catch up' study plan for the long weekend worked beautifully. I do admit I still have 1 lecture to listen to however that is the only thing left from my catch up to be done.

I'm also half way through the first submission assessment of my Learning Log. I have a 1000 word essay to write due the same day as the learning log but at the moment, I'm making great progress even if I do say so myself.

Apparently results from my worksheets submitted in week 2 will be availbable tomorrow so I'm very interested to know how I went on those. Grades for my essay submitted last week most likely won't be available for another 2-3weeks so I'll be patiently awaiting those.

My tutor for SSK12 is fantastic. He is not only very helpful but he's approachable, explains things clearly and is only too happy to answer any questions you may have. I hope I come across other tutors like him during the course of my degree.

Feeling rather pleased with myself right now.

Friday, March 21, 2008

A small sense of accomplishment

I have managed to get quite a bit of study done today and I have to say I am rather pleased with myself. I still have a little catching up to go and the aim for the rest of the weekend, aside from celebrating Easter, is to be caught up ready for week 4.

I submitted my first assessment for one subject today. It was a real struggle writing the essay required but I got there in the end, even if it was finished on the day of submission. Poor time management and a lot of stress, chaos and other things thrown in just for good measure are what lead to me leaving that assignment til the last few days before it was due. I also revised a lot of tutorial discussions to make sure I had the right idea and path way to down before I finished the assignment.

Now it's submitted all I can do is hope for the best!

Today I've managed to complete :

- essay
- readings from week 2 and 1 from week 3
- learning log exercise
- glossary words (list will be added to)

I'm on schedule for my catch up! At this point in time, I'm feeling good!!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Happy 30th Birthday Chris

Happy 30th Birthday Chris.

I can only imagine you'd have been planning a big party for this coming weekend, or maybe the one before because of Easter. Your family would've been there, your friends and I'd have tried my best to come up for it.

Instead your birthday will be quietly remembered, possibly celebrated by some, with fond memories of you and wishing you were still here. I wonder how many still go to pick up that phone to say "happy birthday" to you.

I'll have a drink for you, wish you well and remember the fun times.

Happy Birthday.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

A bit of everything

First things first. Surgery. The ear.

After seeing my ENT Tuesday this week it is clear that this grommet must be removed. The tissue in my ear has all bar grown over the top of the grommet. So the big day is March 31st, which reminds me, I must take my admission forms over to the hospital at some point tomorrow. This little grommet removing expedition is not as straight forward as one would assume. I've had multiple grommets, some removed and some fallen out on their own accord. I've never had a problem with a grommet until now. But after having a foreign piece of plastic in your ear for some 15years, it's really a surprise it hasn't reacted badly before now! (Although having said that, my ears were in a nasty state when I first saw my ENT.)

Basically the ENT will have to dig around a little to remove the grommet. The way he explained it, he made it sound like he had a huge amount of room to be "digging" and "pulling" and "removing". At this stage it looks like a day surgery and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that there are no hiccups, or any other unforseen findings in my ear!!

Secondly. Turtle. Behaviour. This week we are in the whiney stage. The hitting stage seems to have passed (for now) but we're left with incessant whining over every little, minute, fraction of a thing! So to combat this I now have a chart on the fridge, not just for Turtle but for everyone, and on it are times and things you should be doing. It's purely for the morning school routine but I'm hoping a bit of structure is just what this kid needs! Another reason I decided to do it is because the other morning I dared to ask him to get dressed before having breakfast (whereas normally it's the other way around) and boy didn't he put on a performance over not having had breakfast first! This lead to me think "Hmmm, routine, he's used to it, don't mess with it."

We are still no closer to an assessment date. I am being patient (and as understanding as I can be considering the ratio of caseworkers to children) and not kicking up a fuss over it yet. But let me just say that if there is no sign of a date come the end of April, then I will be very strongly asserting the disappointment in the "support" they seem to show for Turtle. Honestly, if we had a bit more support, not only from the department but also our own family members, then I think Turtle would be managable.

Thirdly. Study. Lack of. Stress. Assessment. Essay. ARGH! Let's just say that this week I've been trying to focus on a 500word 20% weighted essay for one subject. I am roughly 300words into it now and have put it away for the night because I wasn't thinking clearly enough to finish it. It is due Friday afternoon so I still have a little time on my side for fine tuning, conclusion and anything else it needs. I am almost convinced that I won't get a fantastic grade on this one. I'll be happy with a pass, hell even a conceded pass! At least I have other assessments totalling 80% I can focus on and hopefully gain decent marks in.

And in other news....

Turtle and Rhi had their Easter Hat parade today. Both of them enjoyed it and resisted the urge to eat the tiny eggs off their hats! I don't think the school could've coped with more cotton wool though! It was on just about every single hat and some hats were literally covered entirely in cotton wool!

Tayla starts netball training tomorrow. Rhi starts the following week. We've been very lucky because both of them will train on the same day at the same time. I was hoping that their training schedule would be easy to manage. I was picturing having training for one and then having to go back an hour after the first one finished. So that has worked out really well for us. The tricky part will be what time they actually play once the season officially begins.

And saving the best for last....

Ethan has 2 teeth! Both front bottom teeth have finally emerged! The first cut through last Friday and the second cut through today. He soon will have that gorgeous toothy grin happening! I think he knows he has "new" things in his mouth because he pulls funny smiles and has already bitten his fingers and shocked himself.

And with that, I am off to bed knowing that I'm just a little bit closer to completing my assignment, feeling a bit above sinking level and damn tired!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Can it get any worse?

I would love to know what I've done wrong in a previous life to deserve this week!

I went and saw my ENT on Monday. That stubborn 15yr old grommet in my ear is now causing problems. The tissue around it was trying to grow over the top of it. So after some scraping and suctioning (which let me tell you is NOT the most pleasant experience), 2 days of $30 ear drops; the tissue has now grown OVER the grommet. Today the ENT could not see it!! Good thing he knows where it's meant to be!! Now I'm on different $23 ear drops (that's $53 on ear drops in 2 days!) and I go back and see him on Tuesday.

He was going to book me in for an operation on Monday but couldn't because he already has 7 people booked!!!! He needs to take the grommet out. We always knew the grommet would have to come out one day, they're not designed to be that permanent. (apparently the 'permanent' ones only last say 5yrs.) So yes, within 2 weeks I could be in hospital, having a grommet cut out from inside my ear and hoping like crazy that there are no complications during or after the surgery!!

Turtle is causing stress again! Yesterday he slapped Ethan across the face unprovoked because Ethan was wearing an old hat of Turtle's. Mind you this hat hasn't been worn in probably 12months, has shrunk and wouldn't even fit Turtle's head! But because he saw it, he wanted it, he slapped Ethan, he took the hat. I wasn't home at the time but when I was told about it, I was absolutely livid! I've talked to Turtle, and I've explained as much as I can that this is his last chance. If he hurts Ethan again I will call who needs to be called and he may have to live somewhere else. I went into this saying that the safety of my children comes first and I have to stick with that. We still are prepared to work with Turtle and get him the help he so obviously (and desperately) needs but if the safety of any of the other children is compromised in a serious way by him again, then I'm afraid we have to put their needs ahead of Turtle's. We have done a huge thing by taking him and Chipmunk into our family but we can't have anyone put in danger because of him either. We haven't given up on him, I can't stress that enough, but I'm stuck between a rock and a very very very hard place!!

I talked to my best friend tonight on the phone about everything going on lately and she said that I didn't sound like my usual self. We only talk on the phone say once every couple of months (life gets in the way!) but apparently I didn't sound as happy or upbeat as normal, and she's known me a very long time. I told her I was tired, buggered, and just 'over' everything.

I cannot wait for our QLD holiday in July!!!!

I'm not even going to comment on study this week. With everything else that's gone on, I've had limited study time but I do hope to catch up by the end of the week.

"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, what do we do? Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swim, swim swim.................."

Monday, March 10, 2008

Off to a great start

The start of week 2 and we're off to a fine start!!

I have woken up with an incrediously sore ear! I don't know if I've slept with arm pressed onto it the entire night or if I have the makings of an ear infection so yes, a trip to the Dr is on the cards for me this morning. I've always had problems with my ears since I was little but for the past 2-3yrs they have been relatively stable. I've been seeing an ENT every 3-4months to keep an eye on things because believe it or not, I still have a grommet in my right here that was put there when I was 14! You work out the math! Anyway my specialist has always told me "any problems, give me a call" so I'll go see the GP first (easier to get into) and then call the ENT and let him know and he can decide if he needs to take a look.

Ethan's also off to a fine start himself. Poor little guy has had his cold come back, just when you think he's over it, and was coughing so much after his bottle this morning that, let's just say, he now has an empty tummy and feels better for it. He's gone to sleep (on an empty tummy!) and has been sleeping for around an hour now. He is a bit phlegmy so I will have the Dr check him out aswell.

We can go months without having to visit our Dr, then as soon as one person in this family goes, it all snowballs from there! I had to take 3 of the children to see him last week (tonsilitis, immunisations & home sick from school), and here we are this week with myself needing to go and Ethan again. Thankfully our GP bulk bills!!

Depending on the outcome of the look inside my ear, I may not go to the gym this morning. I have a body pump class on but my ear feels "blocked" and we all know ear infections can affect balance. Combine that with lifting weights overhead and it may not be a good mix!! We'll see how we go! I may settle for an hour of cardio.

Til later........

Friday, March 7, 2008

The rest of the day

The rest of the day went like this....

Ethan had his 6month immunisations. He didn't cry much after the first one, but after the second he did. Poor little guy!! I have to say though, he handles his immunisations very well!! He had a sleep afterwards and has been fine ever since.

Chipmunk didn't get cleared to attend daycare today. Her tonsilitis is responding well to the antibiotics and she's on the mend. She has been cleared to go back to daycare from Monday.

I did manage to listen to both lectures today. Exactly how much of it sunk in I'm not too sure! I logged on to the unit and went to the tutorial discussion group with all intention of participating but didn't know where or how to begin! I think I need to read the reading again and re read the question and see how I go. I feel so behind already and it's only week 1.

Then again it hasn't exactly been a great start to studying this week!!

Rhiannah also came home sick from school today! Apparently she'd been asleep during the morning and I got a call around 11ish to go and pick her up. So another trip to the Dr's (figured he didn't work hard enough :oP) and another script for the same medication as Chipmunk. Rhiannah's throat is a little red, she had a temperature which has now come back down to normal, and she was very tired. The Dr said it looks like she may get tonsilitis but at this point in time, doesn't have it. The script is incase it comes out in force over the weekend.

Let's hope we get through this weekend without anyone getting worse, or others becoming ill aswell!! And let's hope next weeks study is far more organised than this week has been! I still have a few exercises to do over the weekend for my intro subject!! (oh and Rob is working both days for 6hrs each day but I'm sure that 6hours will turn into 8 or more but let's not go there shall we?)

Almost the end of the first week...

...and I've only just completed one reading for my 2nd subject!! I have decided that from now on I will be doing this subject FIRST! And spend 2-3days on it, then the remaining 2days on my first subject as it seems to be a lighter workload. I know with independant study they say you can "work at your own pace" but if I continue to leave this subject til later, I'm going to fall so far behind the tutorial discussion group. As it is, anything I contribute today and over the weekend will most likely have already been said.

So the game plan for today is :

* take the kids to school
* quick trip to the post office to send off eBay packages
* take Chipmunk to the Dr's and have her tonsilitis checked, if given the OK then drop her off at daycare
* Come home, put Ethan down for a sleep and then listen to my lectures. There's 2 of them to get through

By the time the 2nd lecture finishes, Ethan will probably be awake and that will most likely be the end of study til later in the afternoon.

So no more dilly dallying on here - time get people moving!!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

It's what makes us "us"

Every once in a while you will come across someone who has been through something horrendous, life changing, terrifying or your perception of it. Every once in a while that someone will make you sit back and say "thank God I never went through that!" or make you think how awful it must've been for them and how you wish you could've done something. Every once in a while, that person you've come across, is all the while extremely thankful for you having been there in that instant. For your being there, you've given them strength, willpower, courage and the urge to keep on going.

At least that's what I can say for myself. Except I'm not the one who came across someone. I was the one who made someone thankful that it never happened to them, or to the same extent, and I was the one who will forever be grateful for having that friend be there when she was needed.

Every once in a while I'll reflect. It'll come up in a conversation, like tonight, and I'll be quite ok to sit and talk about things. Remember little things, or maybe something I hadn't previously told, and afterwards I can say "but you know much as I wish it wasn't part of my life experiences, it's what makes us 'us'."

Every thing that happens in your life, however small or great, has some impact on the person you become. There are the good things that bring us the positives of life, and then there are the absolutely horrible things we'd rather not speak of that put us in such negative places we think we'll never come away from. Those places, however dark, help shape us.

For me, those years of my life can never be rewound so I can start again. But if I could rewind them, would I? Sure I would. I'd give anything to not have that in my life history. But if I did erase it, would I be who I am now? That's the thing.

Every little thing leads to an even bigger thing and the final outcome is you. Who you are. Where you are. The choices you've made. The life you lead.

So to my friend, who was there for me all those years ago, thank you! I know you still to this day wonder was there something you could've done, could you have found the right words to say to someone, wondering did you do enough. I want you to know you did more than I ever wanted or expected you to do. What you did; being there for me, keeping my confidence was more than I could've asked for. At a time like that, you'll never quite fully understand how having someone I could tell everything to set me free and gave me the strength to keep on going. I've never forgotten that, or what you told me in return (which is a confidence I've never broken to this day), and I never will.

Isn't it strange what a conversation makes you reflect on?

Monday, March 3, 2008

Day 1 of study.....

Today was the first day of my returning to study.

This is how the day went.....

6am - up with Ethan, first morning feed and cuddles, all the while wishing I had just 30mins more of sleep seeing as I was up with him at midnight because he was a little snuffly and in need of some mummy cuddles. Precious cuddles they are and of course Ethan is just too cute to deny them!

7am - Ethan went back to sleep bless him! So I got on with getting breakfast for the rest of the tribe.

Out the door at 8:45am to take 3 to school and 1 to daycare. Running a little late because I would normally go to daycare first but today I did it in reverse.

I get to my Mum's shortly after 9:30am, sit down and feed Ethan before we headed out. I was meant to go to an RPM class at the gym but I still had a bit of the headache I went to bed with the night before so I didn't think vigorous exercise was a wise idea. I'm sure the scales will reflect later that I really should have gone.

We were just about to walk out the door when the phone rings. It's Daycare. Chipmunk has a 38.2 degree temperature, she needs to be picked up ASAP. So a quick phonecall to the relevant people to cancel Chipmunks visit today with her bio-dad (spent a good part of 15mins on hold!) and we're off to pick her up.

Arrive at Daycare to find Chipmunk sitting at a table wearing a jacket WITH the hood over her head. Now keep in mind they called me saying she had a high temperature yet they let her sit there rugged up to the max! Bundle Chipmunk off to the car, forget to grab her bag, and we headed to "work" to say hi and exchange Ethan's outfit for one in a larger size. (this boy is growing too fast!). Oh I should say that Chipmunk didn't appear to be "sick" and actually brightened up when I picked her up.

Was met with the question of "When are you coming back to work? Are you coming back 5days?" and I keep on replying "I don't know yet, I'm still thinking about it" when really I know I'm not going to and probably will look into an extended trade type thing with them. Actually that's looking more and more like the best avenue to take and that would fit in (hopefully) with family, uni and everything else.

Chipmunk seems pretty happy she's out and about with us, she doesn't feel warm now and is happy to be walking along.

We head off to see one of my Mum's colleagues for lunch. Had yummy Garlic King Prawns for lunch. Actually I should say we just ate garlic and a few prawns! Overdosed on garlic today!!

After lunch we head home to my Mum's, have a drink and then pick the kids up from school and come home.

This was the first time I sat down to look at anything remotely uni related. I wanted to make sure I had access to both my units online and see where I needed to start with them. 20mins into looking I notice Chipmunk sitting on her chair shaking her legs. I thought she was being silly so just watched and she kept doing it. Poor thing was feverish and said she felt cold.

And off we go to the Dr's!

Chipmunk has tonisilitis! The poor kid!!! She now has antibiotics, will be off daycare for the rest of the week (she can possibly attend Friday if she's lucky), another cancelled visit with bio-dad that was rescheduled for Thursday. I do feel bad for her seeing as we had her out and about but she seriously seemed ok. She was a little tired which I put down to her waking up too early (which happens almost every morning) and aside from a cold, I didn't think anything was wrong, well not seriously wrong like tonsilitis.

Tayla missed her Karate class tonight because we were at the Dr's. Dinner was at Mum's because I left all the kids there so I could get Chipmunk's medication. We get home in time for bedtime and at 8pm I finally have all the kids in bed!!

So study wise, I've been able to see what assessments I have due and when (so far nothing clashes), I've found my tutorial group for 1 unit, I've had a quick look at one assessment which is a library learning exercise and a quiz related to it and I've checked my week 1 topics for both units.

Maybe tomorrow I'll move into the actual reading of prescribed readings, notes etc.

There will be no gym this week. I can't take Chipmunk there while she's sick so a few walks late afternoon will have to suffice. Rob has offered to not go in the evening so I can go to a couple of classes (boxing/pump) but the evenings are "his" gym time if he wants to go. I'll be happy with getting in 2 walks this week considering everything else that's going on.

Tomorrow's study plan will be readings for 1 unit during Ethan's sleep. And I'll look at the 2nd unit in the evening. In theory that sounds fine. We'll see how we go.

Friday, February 29, 2008

Just around the corner

Would you believe that this week, Turtle has been a completely different child? Sure he's had his moments as most 4yr old boys would. But overall I would have to say he is a lot better than the child he was being last week. This week he behaved during assembly and earnt 5 stickers at school which in return earnt him free computer time today (at school). Turtle's also been far better behaved at home also. I'm not proclaiming he's mysteriously turned into some kind of angel but I welcome any days where he behaves better than he previously has. I know there's a good kid inside him, he just has to get out once in a while!

I also finally heard back from that Gov't Dept we have to deal with. Finally my requests of referrals is being set into motion. With any luck in 4weeks time we should be well on our way to at least having an initial 'needs assessment' followed later with a 'full paediatric assessment'. Mind you these kinds of things should've been done 18mths ago!!

I've been to the gym twice this week. Ethan has been sleeping again of a day and he seems to be over his cold. So my workouts this week consisted of 1 body pump class and 1 boxing class. Next week I will get back to my 3 classes (over 3 days) and maybe a 4th day of my program.

Uni starts for me from Monday!! I received my study pack for 1 subject in the mail today and I've had a quick look through and am now officially scared!! I have 2 pieces of assessment due in week 2. That's 2 weeks away! Already!! Both pieces are graded as 5% of my final mark each so rather light assessments to begin with. I've seen essay questions for my 2nd essay assessment and that's what has caused the feeling of "oh dear what have I done!?" to set in!

On a good note relating to Uni though, I have spent a few hours over the past couple of days working out my degree structure with OUA. I think I have it worked out now. And it'll able me to major in English and History. I originally had no plan of having a History major but it seems to have worked out that way. I was going to use OUA this year as a means to hopefully gain a place through UNE but now that I've finally worked out a good structure (of course it needs to be approved as meeting all requirements) I'm not so sure I will still go ahead with that application. I will see how I go and then decide.

So as of Monday, I'll be spending less time mindlessly surfing around the net while I'm on the computer and I'll actually be studying, taking notes, setting up my study planner with assessment dates and so on.

And of course on Monday my Mum starts her 1week off work and has already planned lunch out on Monday, movies another day and going out on the Thursday. Wonderful timing Mum!! We don't get to spend much time together these days so I'll work something out so I can accommodate everything, or at least try to!

Obviously this week I am feeling better, calmer, more in control if you will. I know all too well how that feeling can turn back into being over it, fed up, not being able to take much more.

So while it's lasting, I'm enjoying the calmness in my house.......before the storm hits!

Monday, February 25, 2008

Just breathe....

Thankfully the weekend turned out better than my entire week!

After lunch on Saturday we packed up all the kids and they went to my parents house. We ended up bringing Ethan home later that night because he just wouldn't settle, and stay settled, so we went and got him and took him to visit some friends with us. Normally we wouldn't take him out past bed time but it wasn't like we were upsetting him by doing so seeing as he was the one wiiiiiidddddeeee aaawwwwaaaakkkkkeeee!! Pleased to say that once he did go to sleep (10pm!!), he didn't stir til 5:30am the following morning, then had a bottle and slept til 9am.

Even though we still had 1 child with us, it was just as good as being completely child free.

Ethan's day sleeping is still leaving a lot to be desired. I'm trying to work out what his new pattern is, and today it is "Let's not give Mummy time to go to her Body Pump Class that she was hanging out for all weekend!!" Typically, Ethan fell asleep at 9:45am and the class started at 10:30am. Guess where I'm not going today?

We had a good, solid, routine worked out that fitted in fantastically around the school runs, my going to the gym and still left me a small amount of time for "me". At the moment, I'm like a headless chook!

Sitting here procrastinating though is NOT getting things done. So I best get started!!

....hmmmm......fairly boring and mundane entry don't you think!?

Friday, February 22, 2008

Chaos, Turmoil & Frustration

Where to begin?

I am having a ridiculously difficult week! Between Ethan changing his routine around, not wanting to sleep of a day, teething and having a cold; and Turtle (foster son) misbehaving at school, spitting, being fidgety, biting at home, being his usual defiant little self - I think I am going to explode........

I cannot express out fed up I am with Turtle at the moment. The challenge with him and his behaviour has been a constant battle since day 1 of him coming to be in our care. Do you think we've received support? Offers of assessments? Referrals for assessments? Followed through recommendations? Do you think we've had anything for him?

I am so thankful he has an understanding teacher. She is keeping me informed on his behaviour at school, and while to her some of the things he is doing are "small", it's just "yet another thing" to add to the list for me at home. I thought maybe he had ADD or ADHD (and I am not quick to use such labels), his teacher reassures me she has other students who take up more of her time than Turtle does. However, this doesn't reassure me when I see him punch his partner (walking in lines) or spit on him. It doesn't reassure me when the teacher tells me she couldn't control him during an assembly where he just would not sit still and behave. It doesn't reassure me when she tells me he refuses to do his work in class. Again, small things to her, just another thing to me.

I don't want to be seen as the parent who shrugs everything off and doesn't take positive steps to help rectify their child's behaviours. I don't want to be the parent that other parents look at with contempt because their child is possibly hurting theirs or being spat on. ]

I am at my wits end right now. I know Turtle's behaviours aren't as bad as I've seen from other children over the years, however, it doesn't make the situation any easier for me.

I am tired of speaking to him about what he's done wrong. Nothing we say or do has any effect on him whatsoever and we have tried many things! Yelling, time out, loss of priveleges (ie tv, favourite toy taken away), missing out on treats (ie the others get desert and he doesn't, he doesn't get his school lunch order), being spoken to by other people (ie grandparents, teacher). We tried implementing a behaviour chart where you earn stars but he was losing his stars faster than he was being rewarded with one. For every positive (good) thing he does, there's 5 negative (bad) things he does after it.

Frustration doesn't even begin to describe the situation!

I have again asked for help with him. I have again asked who we are meant to take him to see. I have again asked to be contacted back. Bloody Government Departments!! You see there's a certain way you have to go about things with them. But I'm fast running out of patience and I will be just going out on a limb soon and organising things privately myself. And forwarding all bills to them!

And through all of this, Chipmunk (foster daughter and Turtle's sister), has decided now it's time for her to start mimicking Turtle's behaviours.

And on top of all this, my 2 units for Uni start on March 3rd which is 1 1/2 weeks away.

Please explain to me how I am supposed to unwind, relax, and get into a good mindset so that I'm not overwhelmed by it all???

Thankfully I will have a 1 night break this weekend while all the children spend the night with my Mum.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

2yrs on......

Dear Nan,

Two years ago today, a chain reaction of events started that ultimately saw you leave this life behind. This time two years ago, you had suffered an aneurism at the base of your brain stem. You had gotten up as any other normal morning, began getting Krystal ready for school, put her drink bottle in the freezer and your headache hit. Hard. Fast. Strong. Painful.

A shower did nothing to relieve it. I wonder if you knew "this was it". I wonder if you had a thousand thoughts run through your head of things you hadn't yet done, things you hadn't yet said and thoughts you were yet to have and I wonder if you knew what was happening. By the time the ambulance arrived at your house, you were already unconscious.

I remember Mum ringing me that morning "We think Nan's had a stroke, I'll call you once we know more, go to work, I'll call you" I remember having my phone on me at work and getting a call and all I could hear was shuffling, a zipper, so I hung up. Seconds later it rang again, it was Mum, "She's not going to wake up Cez, Mum won't wake up" With that I left surrounded by a group of colleagues all concerned I shouldn't drive.

I arrived at Westmead Hospital in record time to find Pop and Mum in with a grief counsellor. Leah arrived at the same time as I did. This is when we were told the news....

"Your Nan has had a major aneurism. We have her currently sedated on a breathing machine. Now there are lots of tubes, don't be alarmed, they are helping her breathe right now." They didn't need to say breathing machine, we all knew it was life support. I suppose they didn't want to seem heartless and use abrasive words. Breathing machine somehow sounds gentler than life support I guess.

You didn't look sick. You looked pissed off if anything!! I still have a small giggle at that. Your forehead was red like it gets when you were cranky telling off one of us grandkids when we were small. I figured you had a bingo game on that morning that now you'd have to miss. ("of all the nerve!" I hear you say!)

I don't think I quite accepted the possibility of you not waking up, or the severity of what we were facing, until I saw you that morning. Then it hit, and hard.

My nan was going to die. I'd just lost a baby 2weeks beforehand, could my life get any worse?

Each time someone went in to speak with you and hold your hand, we'd notice things on your face. A lip tremble, a tear escaping your eye, a flicker in the fingertips. Were we imagining these things? They say people who are unconscious can still hear, so we all spoke to you as if you were wide awake.

Once the Doctor's had established that nothing could be done to save you, or release the pressure from the aneurism, you were moved to a ward room where we waited for the rest of family. During the day we all took turns of sitting with you, stroking your hair, your hands, your face and talking to you.

You received lots of comments from the nurses about your skin, "she has such soft skin, she doesnt' look 67, I'd have said 50 at the most." You were too young to be lying in that bed, you still had so many plans and much to live for.

I don't remember what time your life support was turned off, somewhere around 9pm I think. You held on as best you could breathing on your own for 45minutes and then you took your last breath. We were all by your bedside, at Pop's request, when you took that breath. We watched you struggle for each breath in your last attempt to hang on. I know you gave it all you had to pull through, even if the odds were stacked so highly against you. You still let us know "hey I'm trying not to leave!"

After that final breath, the room fell silent. And then all you could hear was our hearts breaking and the tears flowing.

And here we are now 2yrs later, feeling like it was a lifetime ago aswell as only a week ago. So much has happened since you passed. You have a new great grandson, and a new grandson, both of which we all wish you could see. You'd have been in all your glory being able to show them off.

Both my girls still often talk about you, ask questions and remember times spent wth you. I'm sad that Ethan won't know you in that sense. But he will know you through our hearts and our memories of you.

We're all heading out to your house today. Everyone will be there not only to remember you but also for Krystal's birthday. Yes I know, I can hear you, "it was her birthday a week ago" and not really a great day to 'celebrate' is it?

I know you're still around sometimes, I will have random thoughts and hear your voice, have the urge that I need to ring you for something, and dream of you in a way I know is you saying that you're ok.

Two years on; you're still missed and loved, cherished and thought of, for now, for ever, for always.

RIP Nan. We love you.
9.11.38 - 17.2.06

Friday, February 15, 2008

Organisation.....feasible concept or myth?

Today I found my readings for one of my subjects and saved them to the computer. Also printed them out as I find it easier to read something in hard copy than on a computer screen. This is my attempt at becoming organised. In reality it's somewhat of a myth to be organised, well in this house at least. Since I've been on Maternity Leave, organisation is something I only dream about! (along with a great deal of other things!)

I think I am about as prepared for Uni as I can be until I actually begin and have my study guides for my 2 subjects. I'm both anxious and excited about commencing my degree!

Wish me luck!

I also learnt today that a squeal is a universal form of communication. Ethan has taken to squealing when he's happy, laughing, upset, crying, frustrated and to get your attention. Each squeal has a slightly different sound too. And of course there's the best squeal of all which ends in fits of laughter. Such a character, my son.

Hmm not doing too badly with this blog thing, 3 posts and I'm not bored with it yet.

Maybe I'll post something deep and meaningful another time.

Til then...

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

First word & pain

Ethan said his first word this morning!! He was being cute in his bed, obviously not sleeping, and he blew a raspberry and said "bub". It was so adorable because right after he gave me the biggest cheesy grin. I'm sure that grin meant "There! You have my first word, now stop trying to make me talk!"

No doubt, it will seem like a week has a past and I'll be saying "be quiet" and "do you ever stop talking?"

This morning I had my body pump class. I LOVE body pump! Before the class I went and stepped on the scales and saw that I had gained 400g on last week!! How that happened I do not know but it was enough for me to say "Right! RPM after body pump it is!" And so I went and did an RPM class straight after. Surprisingly it wasn't as difficult as my first 2 RPM classes I did four months ago. I am thinking that body pump has helped the strength in my legs (squats/lunges) because when I attempted those 2 RPM classes (before trying body pump) I was struggling to do the standing up rides. This time I was able to keep pace and stay up for the length of the "track". Very proud of myself there. (and I better see that 400g disappear next week!)

Uni starts in 2½ weeks, time to start getting organised. I am in the process of working out a balance, schedule if you will, so that I'm able to keep up with study, the kids, the house and still have a bit of "me" time. (I'm a mother......what's "me" time?? I'd give anything to go to the toilet uninterrupted some days!) I'm taking the advice of a couple of good friends and some kind of a schedule or chart is just what I need. Something visual to make sure I'm on track and everything that needs taking care of, is done.

Random fitness quote I found today to end on, made me laugh!! :

The word aerobics came about when the gym instructors got together and said, "If we're going to charge $10 an hour, we can't call it jumping up and down." ~Rita Rudner

Saturday, February 9, 2008

And so it begins...

And so it has begun, the blog, again, although it has been quite some time since one has kept up with a blog.

So, why now? Well, why not? I thought about it, decided to and here I am.

I don't promise to make this riveting. I don't promise to be a part of anyone's favourites. I do however promise to rant, rave, dribble and whatever else I feel the need to do.

Subject matter of course will be the ramblings that are my life.

So, it's begun, the blog of the next chapter of my life.